what is it about the ways of the world,? iam slow on the uptake here!
iam not in tune any more .with anything. i was so intent on doing well
if you could play 18 holes of golf in the morning and 18 hole in the evening then you are a???????????????
04/06/2010
03/18/2010
the new.
its been eight years.the last five of those year i have not spoken to your daughters.not one of my aunts uncles nephews nieces brother,sisters.i must be a the worst ever.i can defend myself to you and you alone.i need not justify my mistakes to Hippocrates god be with thee unless your the poor and dissociated.i have made my peace with the only one in this world that has any matter to me.its been 8 years the last time we spoke you told me to stay warm.and with you that meant more then the obvious. i have .i now have my beginnings they love this world as much or more the we. 8 years ago.going on nine this year and that will make 6 that i still have not spoken to your daughters.
SHOULD I BE WARM .i was taught to be very respectful to all people.i have no desire to cause hurt or discontent to any living being.i have not lived in sin (not much but some). full of rage is not me never was never will be .i live by the motto live and let be.i live by the laws of this land i beliveve in country family and faith.i have every intent on rising my family to be productive citizens of this world to uphold the pledge that every person in this country takes when born in god we trust. allegiance to the flag of the united states of america and to the republic for which it stands one nation under god with liberty and justice for all..... have we lost sight?have i been in the dark for 9 years it took 30 years and i never once followed your ways( to my dismay)!untill now do i have to be this cold have i been that bad of a person to these people .lets compare shall we.?i have the unfortunate ablitly to be the memory which i know they dont care to hear.
remember the valley house and the peacock we had on the wall .remember how i was the one you made sure i knew how hard the world could be? i have something new after 9 years i have the peace you needed for me to be warm.
and you both are with me at each curve peace.
i cant be warm iam sorry no matter how much i need to be i will always remember that your daughters told people i was dead to them.will that was hard to suffer but i think ive passed it like a good steak.this will be nine years without you bye for now.........
02/23/2010
02/19/2010
QotD: Mix Tape: Song #1
If you were going to make a mix tape to describe how this week went for you, what's the first song you'd put on it. Bonus points if you share the song with us. Well this week has been a strange one indeed so id have to find some far away place LIKE HELL AWAITS OR EVEN SOMETHING SMOOTH LIKE BURN IN HELL.OR BEST YET THIS ONE HERE;
02/01/2010
the last ..
i have always had a bit of and odd outlook on things.i use to love punk,death,black,and heavy metals.to this very day my all
as time goes by i think of all the time and effort that i put in to being a metal head.i listen to all types of
.i like most except for the obvious country,hip-hop,that new stuff metalcore.and rap.i look back to the first time i heard doom metal the album was black sabbaths sabbath bloody sabbath.the groove in that tomb just took me to another place that was without fear.even though the songs had a black side to them i always felt safe from harm.not untill i seen my first show did i come totally involved in the violence and aggression not person aganist person but the music it self. i go back through the massive amounts of songs that i have heard wanted to hear and always looking for the next best thing and see now that the meaning to these songs that i grew up listening to have a different meaning then that which i thought of at first.
back in the days before i decided to have a family life i was going to be in a rock band well a death,speed,thrash,punk,metal band me and a very good friend joel forthman had it all planed out.we lived the life we did the drinks and drugs not the hard ones that killed off most of the sounds of that time which by the way was in 1988.i think back to that time and remember myself as a kid who wanted nothing more then a loving wife.and kids but only after we made our millions. we planed for me to be the lead singer and joel was on guitar we both sucked at these parts but we had the vision .we where growing up in seattle at the time of a massive music scene sound garden were our neighbors.and the accused had a sound room under the bar we drank at on most nights.and we had the look the long hair the leather the lust for life only the young have at that point in life.
we were both into the devils music as all the preps called it .most of the music of that time had to do with evil in some form. practice what you preach i guess i just wanted to have the life i felt i was entitle to.beers where a big part of diet as was the custom back then.and yes did i partake in allittle to much for my own good.
i got lost with the birth of my first child i think i was allittle over my head i was 19 and not looking to become a dad yet.but it happenend and guess what my life kindda took a turn. like music had a great effect.something i knew i needed to take ownership over this child but that was not in the plans of my wifes family.namely her mother.i was a long haired pot smoking beer drink want to be rock who knock up her daughter.so i did the only thing i thought possible.we got married and bought a house and i got a good job making o.k money. but it was not how i ee myself at that time i hated myself for not being better and everything i was i new father and already i was doomed(by her mother )i didnt know it then but she had it in for me from the day we met.
she got me out of her daughter and my ons life in no time at all sure iam not innocent but i can only take 1/2 the blame.i fell into this hurtful lifestyle that lasted 15 yrs.contu.......
11/29/2009
where has all the music gone.?
o.k so ive been in this gig for going on 40 years .and i have seen alot of movement in the music industry with the start of the doom metal, death, speed, thrash metal,all the new and old satanic version of sounds but now its to the point that we are at a stand still with or lack of the vision.
My fav band in the world has been producin musick for 28 years..SLAYER is has old then the bands that are trying to be the it band..
and another metal band that has been through all the smack of grunge punk and hip hop manowar has always produced good sounds.
lost all hope of anything good coming..
that could ever compete with all the old ones..
who could take of the music world now?
maybe kurt?
oopps ..kurts dead better luck next time.
this is just a small rememberence to music of the past ..
maybe we have the sounds that will bring back ?????????????
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